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Tuesday, February 09, 2010

i'm seeing MY fav. hamster later!!!!!
yes, you!!!!!!!!!!!!



HAHAHAHA i keep post her pix confirm irritate die you all.
don't care only ^^

it's so nice to be happy ~
it's so nice to see MY hamster ~

(p.s. baby said i'm bhb to say she's mine. MY fav what.... :(
cannot meh? so bad. fk you.)

he jealous only. cos i keep siao over her never siao over him.
too bad hahaha. heehx

4 MORE PAPERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 08, 2010

worn out.

i have an exam 7 hours later but i'm too stressed n fucked up to sleep.
becos the module is too crap-ish and i keep getting it wrong.
what's with all the bonds, shares, EIRs, account receivables?
i don't see me putting any of it to use in the years to come.
so why bother?

this has never happened before.
i don't think i ever tried this hard.
but what if it all comes down to naught?
why of all times, now then wanna get good grades?

helppppppppppppp...............

i hate you bfin. fuck off from my life.

i want baby nw. :(((((((((((((

Sunday, February 07, 2010

hi im here 2 blog! (:
on friday baby was asking me to go look for him on saturday.
initially i didn't want to because i only had weekends for bfin...
and i'm really REALLY worried about it!
you know the feeling whereby you already tried your best and you studied all you can, but you still can't be sure enough to say "I'm done studying!" because you didn't do all the tutorials and although you studied enough, you may not know enough to apply it to the exams questions?
aka me, that's how i feel right now.
too many times have i said, "I will do my tutorials this semester!"
but after the first few, all goes to naught. haha!
i can't help it. i just can't do homework w my laptop.
and i told the sch that by rating laptop using "Very unhelpful".
i hope they get the point, studying w/o lappy aka in sec sch was so much better.
at least that's what i think!
another reason why i'm here blogging when i'm supposed to be business financing. lol! :P

sidetracking, woke up @ around 12 plus ytd.
cancelled my piano cos i told her i'll sleep late & wake up late and study.
texted baby, and took train to cityhall.
luckily i brought my notes w me, and i read thru desatt notes otw there!
and around braddell i SERIOUSLY felt like shitting.
but i couldn't. LOL. shy*
told dear :$..... hehe she's so kute lah!
walked 2 suntec and i still feel that citylink is too long for my own good. zzzz.
went to watsons' first to buy my foundation! bombed like $30. it's okay i haven't spent for a long time.
speaking of which i didn't earn either. LOL.
looked for pets' village where baby is working @. but i couldn't find zzzzz.
walked around that fountain of wealth for like the umpteenth time. and i saw "muthu's curry" and i thought of :$ .......... LOL.........
finally i found it when i saw secret recipe and tony roma's!
because baby once said 1 of the hamsters ran to secret recipe. omg so adorable pls. LOL.
and because he said he wanted me to treat him to tony roma's. -_-
must be work there, keep looking @ tony roma's only. LOL.
baby was attending to some customer. no wonder nv reply my msg :@
i saw the bunnies and the hamsters ~ so damn adorable plsssssss!!!!!!
saw 2 rl small golden hamsters. and they always seemed to be facing the same side tgt.
either face inside or face outside with the stone face. mad cute pls. LOL.
but they're also quite hyperactive, run v fast. i don't like such hamsters, cos i can't handle :@
and there was this superrrr hyperactive hamster that when baby tried to scare it everytime, it will scream like hell. as in really scream.
the scream is damn high pitched, its hands will be like the "Noooo! Don't come" position then the mouth open damn big.
and it's damn small also, can totally imagine how it looks like! DAMN hilarious!!!! hahahahahha!
next time i wanna bring sbg go there see that hamster, @slovez sure laugh till peng. LOL.
then after that baby had his lunch break, i forgot at what time.
so we went to eat @ burgerking.
hahaha and he told me there's this guy with a shirt labeled "U CB" in front. LOLOLOOL.
i saw the guy. damn funny can. but the meaning is not like that lah. like one of those china shirts that they just put chapalang letters on top. -_-

went back 2 the shop, and baby let me play with this suppppppppperrrrrrr cute pudding hamster.
it was left alone n not for sale because i heard she's the last baby to come out from the mum. aft they put w other hamsters, they heard a lot of fighting inside.
when another girl went to check, all the hamsters like attacking this small one while it was cowering in the corner. zzzzzzz fuck v poor thing ):
and when they took her out, i think her face was like scratched, and got blood.
heart pain srsly!!!!!!!!!
and she's so tiny only....
she's stoner sometimes one can, put on your palm will just sprawl there. feels like a lizard on your palm.
hahahaha but not so gross la.
after that i was totally addicted 2 her alr.
she looks like those 2 that always face same direction. but she's so much more tame. firstly she kept running ard in my hand to the other.
and she keep shitting on my hand!!!!! nb!!!!!!!! LOL
the shit is damn small. looks like a black sesame seed. haha sometimes they run around with the shit because it sticks to their fur. damnnnn cute pls.
i went to study my notes because they always had ppl coming in that they needed to attend to.
so i played w the hamster also. she curled up in my hand and slowly her eyes closed!!!
i realized their bodies also always move a tad bit while they're asleep. and i have to cover my hand with the other hand so she will sleep. once i let it go she will wake up!!!!
so wanting to take pictures = fail.
once my phone almost dropped. scare the shit out of me -_-
but i let her into the cage and i took pictures :D only got 2...
she don't wanna face me and my phone abit hard to put into the cage ah. v small only. LOL.
got other pics when she was on my hand but it was blur...... so yaaaa. just this 2.




HAHAHAH @ this! everytime i see her SO ROUND butt i wanna laugh! LOL :D
kept playing w her until ard 9.30.
bth myself pls -_-
put herself back w much hesitation ):
and i did kiss her. lol!!!!!!! :D
when i went back i could still feel her feet running about in my palm.
i miss you hamster!!!!!!!!! :(
i hope you miss me too k! your bed!!!! T.T
told baby to keep it nfs for as long as possible.
hahaha he said he'll keep insisting she's still hurt. lol :D love u baby!
im gonna go see her aft my exams agn i swear! and if i can i wanna buy treats for her. although she's not mine but it's ok :D

aft that i trained home, damn tiredzz man.
mummy bought fish burger for me, and parents sent me home :D
was too tired to study much, so aft baby called me and we talked thn he said he was tired, i accompanied him & slept @ 2.
couldn't fall asleep man -_- keep thinking abt the hamster (heehx) and bfin (fk off).
tonight muz sleep early alrdy.
i shall wish my whole class gdluck for tmr here!
conquerrrrrrr examssssss!
and we can enjoy cny k! ^^

off to bfin! wish me luck plz.
catching the moovee my ex w baby tml. hahah can't wait!
and i wanna get the elmos/cookie monsters for sbg and charlotte they all :D so we'll all have one of each ~

<3 sbg! yay 20 more days to our sleepover! jy with exams k every single 1 of 7 of you bitches!

love baby tuna tooooooooo! (:

Friday, February 05, 2010

i don't know if i made a right decision.
(ok in the first place no decision for me to make fml)
but i honestly hope you've changed.
no matter what there will still be that empty feeling in my heart, cos i can't doubt that the memories of last time is still haunting me. x.x
6 months alr. don't play play hor nb.
now the feeling is weird one lor. LOL.
but whatever it is, i promise i will put my all into this.
at least, i will try.

nobody knows how i rly feel except dear ):
love you k @luvyolandalor ^^ hehe! 5 x 2 = 10. LOL. :B

okay i'm super tired and i'm gg to sleep now ~ for the first time very early uh! haha meeting char & the rest tml for bfin!

and yay, i'm finally gonna watch a movie next monday w bby ^^ LONG TIME SINCE I DID THAT HOR....... As in, watch a movie. Zzz
kk goodnight world :)
i love you k noob baby! <3:)
050210 sia! funny date! LOL

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

All we need isn't just words, white lies, closing one eye to facts, a few apologies, along with a few more empty promises.

What we need is trust, genuineness, real feelings, no third parties, the truth, and everything back again.

For now, I can't find any of that in my heart.

Why must things always go the wrong way.................... ):
Why must everything have a yes/no?
Give me no choice can, so I don't need to think until like that.......
T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T

I'm not gonna start a path that will end.

9 more days.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 01, 2010

Thanks for letting me relive all this again.
I feel really happy, but I'm not gonna put high hopes lest it all crashes down again.... >_<

Can someone help me decipher the comment someone made in my previous post?
I don't know the person!
And it's in Chinese. LOL

Bye, I'm off to study. Done w MICE! ^^

Friday, January 29, 2010

I don't know if you're going to read this.
But I've never let myself think about what you call, an advancement from above of being friends.
I can't do that, as much as you're so nice to me.
I guess I just don't feel that way for you.
The most I can feel for you is just how I'd feel towards an older brother.
And it'll just make it real weird and create dire consequences.
Thinking back about how it was like in 2002.. Within those months..
I don't even wanna think about how bad it was. *shudders >_<
I'm sorry, and my words doesn't carry those kind of meanings that you deem it.
I hope this wouldn't affect our friendship.